Do you ever sit back and wonder how exactly you got to where you are? Every place (good or bad) I’ve found myself has been from a series of my choices. Once upon a time I suffered from a victim mentality. I felt like a series of life events had put me where I was and were the cause of all my woes. One day I suddenly realized that my own choices played a bigger rule in my heartache than any uncontrollable circumstances. And so I decided to change.
I decided not to be a victim, but a survivor.
I chose to tackle each day as if I was going to be the victor by sunset.
I started to ignore my moods and pay more attention to the next right step to take.
I forgave people whether they asked me to or deserved forgiveness. Most of all I dropped all the burdens of my past at God’s feet. Like many people I was beating myself up with my past mistakes. Every day I still make the conscious decision to not pick my burdens back up to use as a weapon against myself.
When I didn’t feel like getting out of bed, I did it anyway. When I wanted to harbor anger I set the boat on fire and set it free.
Twenty-three years ago I was an active alcoholic, depressed, and suddenly faced with becoming a single parent. I cut ties with the anchors from my past, stopped drinking overnight and chose to become a parent worthy of the life I was then carrying.
The journey from there to here has been long. I’ve won some and lost a lot, but overall I feel victorious. I choose to bath my mind, soothe my heart and rest my soul in the comfort of God’s grace.
Tomorrow is a new day – no matter my mood, energy or what is left in my tank I am going to tackle it as if I will have another historic win by sunset. How about you?
(To learn more about my early life story read Puffy & Blue: The Chronicles of Nine Lives Together)